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"You were pretty naive," brutal, maybe, but Mako isn't going to pull punches. Not with this. It doesn't help Bolin any to tell him he didn't fuck up when he so obviously did, even it if hurts him. Mako sucks in a breath, making himself look back up Asami-and-Korra, twined together and rotting there. "It... sucks. Hurting people, even when you didn't mean to. The reason doesn't matter. Even if you thought you were doing something good, and helping, if you hurt someone you care about in the process—" he pauses as a raven cries out, rusty and echoing off rock and water.

Maybe he's never talked with Bolin about this. Maybe that's the problem.

"You, uh. You know after I broke up with Korra, when I was... living at the office?"

He nods, ready to move off his own jagged truths and talk about something else. He's hoping this means talking about something else. It is what it is. It hurts and it festers and it aches but at the end of the day it's just another layer of their shitty past settling on top of them like a snowdrift.

Maybe come spring that snow will melt a little and won't feel so heavy. He sure hopes so.

"I'm still not totally sure why you did that but.. yeah?"

"Because I was trying to hide from shit," Mako says tersely, watching their bodies sway together, rotten and awful. "Because I hurt both of my best friends really badly, and I didn't want to face up to what I did, and it ended up hurting them more. I... spun up this whole thing in my head about how they probably didn't want to see me and even if they thought they did they were just being nice, and how it was better if I just... let them drift away. But that wasn't even what I was doing. I was pushing them away because then I didn't have to deal with any of it. And it didn't help. At all."

Bolin listens, nodding softly. That had been such a mess and to be honest it's amazing Mako made it out alive.

"I guess it probably didn't help when Korra lost her memories and forgot you broke up."

He sure remembers that. He sure remembers keeping his mouth firmly s h u t on that one.

Mako winces at the reminder. "Yeah. It... didn't. What was I supposed to do? I mean. Tell the truth, but everyone was... I didn't want to have that conversation in front of everyone. It was stupid. The whole thing was... stupid."

Bolin hums in agreement and nods solemnly.

"It was, but I'm not sure what else you could have done. That definitely wasn't a conversation to have in front of everyone... but for what it's worth it all worked out in the end and now everyone is happy. So you can't beat yourself up about it."

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