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arclightning) wrote2021-09-01 06:45 pm
arclightning) wrote2021-09-01 06:45 pm
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It's impossible to touch any reflection that isn't your own.
Edited 2021-09-04 01:10 (UTC)
Technically you can't even touch your own reflection. Reflections aren't touchable things. They're concepts.
What were you doing up?
What were you doing up?
[Varian responds back immediately, he's definitely not been sleeping between replies.]
Actually it's the return of light to a surface but I will give you the not being able to technically touch it thing.
I can't sleep. More than usual. The usual stuff I use to make me go to sleep when I can't switch my brain off isn't working.
Actually it's the return of light to a surface but I will give you the not being able to technically touch it thing.
I can't sleep. More than usual. The usual stuff I use to make me go to sleep when I can't switch my brain off isn't working.
Some kind of science thing, right? Returning light to a surface?
[ Mako is concerned. More than usual, especially now that he's not wrapped around Wu, who has been easing the otherwise ever-present anxiety. It clutches at Mako's lungs, knotting his belly into a tight leaden ball.
He's already up and moving just to try and do something about it. ]
Tell me what you usually use to get to sleep.
Not sleeping great either.
[ Mako is concerned. More than usual, especially now that he's not wrapped around Wu, who has been easing the otherwise ever-present anxiety. It clutches at Mako's lungs, knotting his belly into a tight leaden ball.
He's already up and moving just to try and do something about it. ]
Tell me what you usually use to get to sleep.
Not sleeping great either.
Edited (hit enter :T) 2021-09-05 01:53 (UTC)
Yes! That's exactly right. Smooth surfaces relfect photons so it gives you the relection.
[His brain might be screaming nonsensical garbage at him now, but at least he can still science.]
I have these magical pyjamas that Usagi got me, and a pin that Fern gave me. Both of those things alone are usually enough to make me drowsy enough to drop off and both of them together can put me out for the count. The tower in our house has an enchantment on it to ease sleep too, but that's not working either. Fern tried them and they worked on him, so the items aren't faulty.
Luz is struggling too, she's like... hyper-cleaning everything, but I don't know if it's the same as what I have. I'm anxious and I don't know about what.
[His brain might be screaming nonsensical garbage at him now, but at least he can still science.]
I have these magical pyjamas that Usagi got me, and a pin that Fern gave me. Both of those things alone are usually enough to make me drowsy enough to drop off and both of them together can put me out for the count. The tower in our house has an enchantment on it to ease sleep too, but that's not working either. Fern tried them and they worked on him, so the items aren't faulty.
Luz is struggling too, she's like... hyper-cleaning everything, but I don't know if it's the same as what I have. I'm anxious and I don't know about what.
Edited 2021-09-05 20:47 (UTC)
[ Huh, that sounds very similiar to what he's been going through—
Wait. ]
Wait. ]
Edited 2021-09-06 02:23 (UTC)
It looks pretty normal? She definitely doesn't have the same as me and you. No elemental abilities, either- trust me, if she had those, we'd never hear the end of it.
But I've never seen her this stressed before, either. I know she's missing people who didn't come make it through the door, but this is a lot, even for her. I'm worried.
But I've never seen her this stressed before, either. I know she's missing people who didn't come make it through the door, but this is a lot, even for her. I'm worried.
Edited 2021-09-06 10:10 (UTC)
Is this about the fact that she suddenly has ice and fire shooting out of her at random moments?
[ Well, there goes that theory. ]
There's a good chance this is because of the city. If this is whatever was underneath Deerington this whole time, I find it hard to believe the city wouldn't be affected in some way. Back in Republic City even before we had a spirit portal, spirit vines took over the city when there was an imbalance. This could be similar, which means we can expect some of the stuff that happened in town to happen here.
Like nobody being able to sleep and worrying pointlessly about everything.
Happening to me too.
There's a good chance this is because of the city. If this is whatever was underneath Deerington this whole time, I find it hard to believe the city wouldn't be affected in some way. Back in Republic City even before we had a spirit portal, spirit vines took over the city when there was an imbalance. This could be similar, which means we can expect some of the stuff that happened in town to happen here.
Like nobody being able to sleep and worrying pointlessly about everything.
Happening to me too.
It's happening that often? That's
Guess I shouldn't be surprised. This is Ruby. She's one of the most chaotic people I know.
It's not hurting her, is it?
Guess I shouldn't be surprised. This is Ruby. She's one of the most chaotic people I know.
It's not hurting her, is it?
Not as far as I can see. She just keeps talking and moving like usually when it happens, though often with some freaking out - which is more due to the surprise, I imagine.
[ And Ange likes to think she knows Ruby enough to be able to tell when the other is hiding pain from her - though thankfully Ruby usually wears her feelings right on her sleeve. ]
So it's mostly property damage I'm worried about. Or her accidentally setting other people on fire who can't deal with it the way she can.
[ And Ange likes to think she knows Ruby enough to be able to tell when the other is hiding pain from her - though thankfully Ruby usually wears her feelings right on her sleeve. ]
So it's mostly property damage I'm worried about. Or her accidentally setting other people on fire who can't deal with it the way she can.
[It was a good attempt!]
That makes sense. And we can't discount that whatever we did with those eggs ended up having a massive effect on this world. The Moss King definitely seemed to be hinting that they were more than what they seemed. We probably...helped this along, in some way. Which is depressing to think about.
I know saying 'I'm glad you can't either' probably comes across as awful, but I don't mean it like that. It's more... not being alone. At least if other people have the same problems it means it's not just something in me that's broken, y'know? I've got enough of that already.
[That much, Mako is well aware of.]
I hope it stops soon, I never thought I'd say this, but I genuinely want to get some sleep.
...Also Fern would probably appreciate not being woken up every few hours.
That makes sense. And we can't discount that whatever we did with those eggs ended up having a massive effect on this world. The Moss King definitely seemed to be hinting that they were more than what they seemed. We probably...helped this along, in some way. Which is depressing to think about.
I know saying 'I'm glad you can't either' probably comes across as awful, but I don't mean it like that. It's more... not being alone. At least if other people have the same problems it means it's not just something in me that's broken, y'know? I've got enough of that already.
[That much, Mako is well aware of.]
I hope it stops soon, I never thought I'd say this, but I genuinely want to get some sleep.
...Also Fern would probably appreciate not being woken up every few hours.
Noted. I'm on it. Sounds like the first thing she and a couple other people need to learn is control so Ruby doesn't actually burn your house down.
It's not just her. A couple other people have this power now and about 3/4 of them also aren't great at controlling it. This could turn into a real problem.
You ever taught someone how to use magic?
It's not just her. A couple other people have this power now and about 3/4 of them also aren't great at controlling it. This could turn into a real problem.
You ever taught someone how to use magic?
If the Moss King wanted to help us then he could have been more specific. Leaving us to guess what the best outcome was based on cryptic words and our own guts was a pretty stupid way to handle things.
But you're probably not wrong. They seemed important.
And anyway, I get it. What you mean. We're not in this alone, which means it's probably not just us and pretty likely it's some outside force. All we can do is try to fight it.
Are you just.
For me, I just can't stop thinking about everything I could be doing. Everything we're missing. My mind just races.
But you're probably not wrong. They seemed important.
And anyway, I get it. What you mean. We're not in this alone, which means it's probably not just us and pretty likely it's some outside force. All we can do is try to fight it.
Are you just.
For me, I just can't stop thinking about everything I could be doing. Everything we're missing. My mind just races.
[ Great.
That's exactly what they needed in this new place, isn't it. A huge part of the population being able to burn and freeze things, but in a way that's totally outside of their control. It's a small miracle the entire town hasn't burned down yet, Ange thinks.. ]
No.
I mean, I'm still struggling with fully learning it myself, so I never really have been in the position to teach anyone else.
That's exactly what they needed in this new place, isn't it. A huge part of the population being able to burn and freeze things, but in a way that's totally outside of their control. It's a small miracle the entire town hasn't burned down yet, Ange thinks.. ]
No.
I mean, I'm still struggling with fully learning it myself, so I never really have been in the position to teach anyone else.
[ A town full of half-trained magic users is bad enough, and Sleepers, in Mako's experience, are a... chaotic bunch even without a bunch of new powers.
Wow, he really is going to have to do something about this. ]
Yeah, I kind of get what you mean. It's not like I've had any real firebending training outside pro-bending, but I'm gonna have to teach people at least to put them out again or we're not going to have a city left to live in.
Wow, he really is going to have to do something about this. ]
Yeah, I kind of get what you mean. It's not like I've had any real firebending training outside pro-bending, but I'm gonna have to teach people at least to put them out again or we're not going to have a city left to live in.
I think you have one leg ahead of me here. At least you understand the whole.. fire thing.
[ Look.
It's not the most elegant wording, but Mako understands, right? ]
I'd try to help out, but my own magic has nothing at all to do with fire, so I'd probably just make things worse. I don't even know anything I could tell Ruby to get it under control, other than to tell her to calm down..
.. but it's Ruby.
[ Can Ruby even calm down. Is she physically or mentally capable of doing so. ]
[ Look.
It's not the most elegant wording, but Mako understands, right? ]
I'd try to help out, but my own magic has nothing at all to do with fire, so I'd probably just make things worse. I don't even know anything I could tell Ruby to get it under control, other than to tell her to calm down..
.. but it's Ruby.
[ Can Ruby even calm down. Is she physically or mentally capable of doing so. ]
He was cryptic when I first met him, too. I think it's just a thing he does. It's deeply annoying and not actually helpful at all. But he seemed to think he was being helpful, when I spoke to him.
[He likes the Moss King, okay. He thinks plant people are neat.]
So much for moving into a better life, huh? Seems like we've just got more unknowns- probably more dangerous unknowns than we dealt with before.
But yeah. That's what it feels like. Something's wrong and I can't put my finger on what or how we're supposed to be dealing with it. I know October's coming, but it feels more than that.
[He likes the Moss King, okay. He thinks plant people are neat.]
So much for moving into a better life, huh? Seems like we've just got more unknowns- probably more dangerous unknowns than we dealt with before.
But yeah. That's what it feels like. Something's wrong and I can't put my finger on what or how we're supposed to be dealing with it. I know October's coming, but it feels more than that.
[ He's picking up on what Ange is putting down. ]
Pretty well. No, you're right. I have to do something. Still. I think there has to be some kind of magical overlap in the way people's powers work. Maybe you shouldn't help with Ruby
[ For reasons Ange clearly understands even better than him ]
But if there's anything you think might be able to transfer over, I want to hear it.
[ This is as close to a cry for help as Mako's going to get. ]
Pretty well. No, you're right. I have to do something. Still. I think there has to be some kind of magical overlap in the way people's powers work. Maybe you shouldn't help with Ruby
[ For reasons Ange clearly understands even better than him ]
But if there's anything you think might be able to transfer over, I want to hear it.
[ This is as close to a cry for help as Mako's going to get. ]
Was a better life ever promised to us, or were we all just collectively hoping that would happen? This is why hope is a bad thing to hang your future on.
[ Spoken like a true cynic. ]
Yeah. That's exactly it. And we can't solve what we can't even identify.
[ Spoken like a true cynic. ]
Yeah. That's exactly it. And we can't solve what we can't even identify.
For me it's
[ The sentence stops there, because Ange has to think before she continues. It's hard. She hasn't talked much with other people about the way her magic works, ever, so it's pretty hard to suddenly put it into words now. ]
There's a lot of visualisation involved. I have to imagine things before I can make them happen. [ Even if what happens usually isn't fire shooting everywhere, so she isn't sure how helpful that is. ] But with my magic it's usually harder to make something happen than to make something stop happening, so it is the entirely opposite problem of what some people seem to have here right now.
It's like there is just some lack of control for them.
[ The sentence stops there, because Ange has to think before she continues. It's hard. She hasn't talked much with other people about the way her magic works, ever, so it's pretty hard to suddenly put it into words now. ]
There's a lot of visualisation involved. I have to imagine things before I can make them happen. [ Even if what happens usually isn't fire shooting everywhere, so she isn't sure how helpful that is. ] But with my magic it's usually harder to make something happen than to make something stop happening, so it is the entirely opposite problem of what some people seem to have here right now.
It's like there is just some lack of control for them.
I'm starting to think it was collective, desperate hoping at this point because anything had to be better than a literally collapsing nightmare.
No, we can't. And given we know next to nothing about this world it's very overwhelming. Something I'm sure would feel better if we could sleep, but we can't so we're stuck in this cycle of anxiety panic and I'd really like it to stop now.
No, we can't. And given we know next to nothing about this world it's very overwhelming. Something I'm sure would feel better if we could sleep, but we can't so we're stuck in this cycle of anxiety panic and I'd really like it to stop now.
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