laminae: (anxiety)

[personal profile] laminae 2021-01-06 01:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Not really, no.

[The lab is where all the alchemy science happens. Normally, Varian barely spends any time up in his room. Last night had been a little unusual, mainly because of the new year. Fern is sorely regretting celebrating it.

He fumbles to pull his Fluid out of his pocket, tapping to pull up Peter's pamphlet, and hold it out for Mako to take a look.]


Peter's Sleeper pamphlet mentions this can happen to us sometimes, something about us 'going home.' Dunno if that's what's happening here, I've - never really lived with anyone else here before, so I've never seen that happen to anyone else.
laminae: (breathe)

[personal profile] laminae 2021-01-08 12:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Once Mako has read the PDF Fern lowers the Fluid and slumps. He should be relieved that at least one of them seems confident that this is the cocoon thing, but he isn't. He still feels scared and nervous.]

What if he doesn't wake up? What if he's stuck like this?
laminae: (side glance)

[personal profile] laminae 2021-01-08 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[Fern unconsciously tenses up in response to Mako's tone. That has him listening, at least, though he's nervous he's going to get yelled at. Or worse - Mako will just get upset and leave.

But he doesn't. His grass rustles when Mako takes his arm (it's probably an unsettling feeling), but he calms down a little at the touch. He... isn't wrong, Fern supposes. Peter's PDF has been right so far, and since cutting Varian out didn't work, doing the knight thing and protecting him is still something he can do. It's what Finn would do, if Finn were here.

Then again, if Finn was here Varian wouldn't be in this situation. Somehow.]


I'm not really good at just waiting. Or protecting people, usually. [He glances down at Mako's hand.] Mostly just getting mad and cutting stuff.
laminae: (tired)

[personal profile] laminae 2021-01-09 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[Thankfully, Fern doesn't notice Mako's reaction, and his hunch is right. He's always reacted very well to physical affection, and the squeeze makes him relax and slump.

Waiting around, great. Loads of time for him to get all twisted up inside his own head.]


Hold off on the cutting. I know this is gonna go horrible.

[Sorry Mako, he's a negative nelly sometimes.]
laminae: (he made me)

[personal profile] laminae 2021-01-11 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[He can't, but that isn't stopping him from being afraid of the worst happening. Still, he doesn't argue, and he takes Mako's advice to heart.]

I'll try. [There's more negativity on the tip of his tongue - 'I'm not good at planning,' 'The town'll do what it wants no matter how hard I try' - but he holds off on that this time. At least planning for the worst case scenarios gives him something to do.]
laminae: (wrong)

[personal profile] laminae 2021-01-12 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[For a moment Fern debates saying yes, solely because it would mean he wouldn't have to be dealing with this alone. But he stops himself - a knight could handle this. Finn could handle this.

He shakes his head, looking down at one hand clenched into a fist.]


I... I'll be okay. I got this.

[And he glances up.]

Thanks.