Because it my fault! [ Mako snaps, and it comes out louder than he meant it to, echoing off the walls. The carpet, at least, dampens some of the sound, but he winces back from his own words, grimacing hard. ] I'm smarter than that, that's not—

[ He sucks in a shaky breath, sits up a bit straighter and says to the opposite wall: ] If it's my fault, I can learn from it. If it's random, what am I supposed to do with that? I just died, and there was no meaning behind it and the fact that I can't stop thinking about how it felt means nothing.