I usually left the trusting people up to my little brother, that's much more his speed, and he trusts anyone who smiles at him long enough. Still does, no matter how many times I told him he had to be careful. With people like Zolt—I mean, he led a gang and Bo still thought he had our best interests at heart.
At least he made it very clear that nothing I got from him was free. I don't know what I would've done if I didn't understand that, or if I had to learn it.
[ Ignoring that brief time when Mako did have to learn it. He likes to push that time down, pretend he always knew that the world was out to get him unless he fought back first.
It took a lot of hurt to get that wall up, though, and so Mako doesn't think about all the times when he was 11, 12, and reached his hand out for help only for someone to use it to yank him into something awful.
Maybe he'll think about them one day. ]
Thank you. I don't talk about this stuff very much, but. It helps. To understand where people are coming from. That's tough sometimes. I'm sorry you understand what it's like too, but. You're using that understanding for something good.
yea i know some saps like that too. i always wind up feeling kind of bad for them cause they wind up being the ones taken advantage of the quickest.
(Granted, Eddie could be weirdly vulnerable in that way too - though he didn't like to admit as much. But he liked to think that his naivety was different than outwardly trusting someone. He banked on the hope of being able to trust someone, not actually trusting them. It was a schematics thing.)
it helps when people are at least blunt i guess
oh yeah no problem. maul says i have a habit of dragging this shit out of people so really. it does help a lot though and in this place? you'll want to talk about that stuff and understand it pretty close. this place has a habit of holding everything against you so the better prepared you are for it, the better your chances are of getting out of tough spots
Right, yes. You would think he'd get that by now, but. I don't know. I also tried as hard as I could to make sure he could keep that once I accepted that he wasn't going to change. I'd rather him keep his heart safe but if he isn't going to, I guess that's what I'm for.
You really do. I, uh. Don't know how much there is to talk about but I'll keep that in mind.
[ Read: he will continue to repress his own feelings until they literally show up and bite him in the ass, and then will probably keep doing it after that because it's all he knows! ]
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At least he made it very clear that nothing I got from him was free. I don't know what I would've done if I didn't understand that, or if I had to learn it.
[ Ignoring that brief time when Mako did have to learn it. He likes to push that time down, pretend he always knew that the world was out to get him unless he fought back first.
It took a lot of hurt to get that wall up, though, and so Mako doesn't think about all the times when he was 11, 12, and reached his hand out for help only for someone to use it to yank him into something awful.
Maybe he'll think about them one day. ]
Thank you. I don't talk about this stuff very much, but. It helps. To understand where people are coming from. That's tough sometimes. I'm sorry you understand what it's like too, but. You're using that understanding for something good.
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(Granted, Eddie could be weirdly vulnerable in that way too - though he didn't like to admit as much. But he liked to think that his naivety was different than outwardly trusting someone. He banked on the hope of being able to trust someone, not actually trusting them. It was a schematics thing.)
it helps when people are at least blunt i guess
oh
yeah
no problem. maul says i have a habit of dragging this shit out of people so really. it does help a lot though and in this place? you'll want to talk about that stuff and understand it pretty close. this place has a habit of holding everything against you so the better prepared you are for it, the better your chances are of getting out of tough spots
it's fine, man. i mean, thanks, but it's okay.
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You really do. I, uh. Don't know how much there is to talk about but I'll keep that in mind.
[ Read: he will continue to repress his own feelings until they literally show up and bite him in the ass, and then will probably keep doing it after that because it's all he knows! ]