He pulls back from Mako, just a little, wrapping his arms around himself. ]
Awful. Terrible. Like my life, the life I thought I had, was gone, was ripped away by a man who thought that me and my entire family didn't deserve to live.
[ He takes a shaky breath, and suddenly he's on his feet, pacing. He can't sit still, not when he lets himself dwell on this.
This isn't what he wanted, but if it's what Mako needs, he'll say it. He walks away, then spins around and meets Mako's eyes ] I didn't feel good for months. Maybe years. I was afraid, all the time, that they would come back and try to kill me. There was a hurt, deep in here, [ He pushes a hand over his chest ] that wouldn't stop. It's still there, sometimes, because they're still gone, they're still dead, and I'm still in danger because of the family I was born into.
I feel helpless. [ He takes a deep breath, his chest heaving, his eyes fixed on Mako. ] Because I can't do anything about it. Because the decisions I'm making put me at risk. Because now I'm in a place that's horrible and awful and maybe people don't care that I'm a king here, but they might hurt me or kill me for any other reason. Maybe for no reason.
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He pulls back from Mako, just a little, wrapping his arms around himself. ]
Awful. Terrible. Like my life, the life I thought I had, was gone, was ripped away by a man who thought that me and my entire family didn't deserve to live.
[ He takes a shaky breath, and suddenly he's on his feet, pacing. He can't sit still, not when he lets himself dwell on this.
This isn't what he wanted, but if it's what Mako needs, he'll say it. He walks away, then spins around and meets Mako's eyes ] I didn't feel good for months. Maybe years. I was afraid, all the time, that they would come back and try to kill me. There was a hurt, deep in here, [ He pushes a hand over his chest ] that wouldn't stop. It's still there, sometimes, because they're still gone, they're still dead, and I'm still in danger because of the family I was born into.
I feel helpless. [ He takes a deep breath, his chest heaving, his eyes fixed on Mako. ] Because I can't do anything about it. Because the decisions I'm making put me at risk. Because now I'm in a place that's horrible and awful and maybe people don't care that I'm a king here, but they might hurt me or kill me for any other reason. Maybe for no reason.
That. That's how I felt. Feel.